that push 75% through your run where you feel like you can do anything in the world
the idea of running away
lindts white chocolate truffles
the smell of my hands right now
ways that boys have asked me out lately:
1. tried to trip me as i walked by (what the..?!)…then he came up later to apologize/joke/ask me to pancakes (this one worked. surprisingly. i gave him the benefit of doubt for originality. he has the cutest freckles and tight jeans)
2. "well are you gunna give me your number?" poorly put dear boy, but i know you were nervous
3. and my favorite to date.
him "are you good at math?"
me "no i hate it, do you need a tutor?"
him "No, i need you to solve an equation…P + Des squared/tomorrow night X fro-yo @ 8-9ish to the square root of fun equals….
all the sudden today. i wanted to cry. i wanted to hold a baby. it doesnt have to be mine.
ladies, give birth already. i'm ancy for you.
i have a gorgeous evening planned.
i love my life. even if i don't know what i'm doing.
this video will only be partially entertaining to 3-4 people in the world. and that is ok.
this is my middle eastern friend tim.
he is one of my very best friends.
he is a hand model.
and he is always paranoid.
we don't really get along, but somehow i love him.
note: i really genuinely love the indian culture. very interesting to me. i had a lot of clients that were from india and they are absolutely amazing. i want to go there..until then, i will continue to eat chicken makhani & garlic naan and practice my bollywood dance moves.
"Time is a gift, a treasure not to be put aside for the future but to be used wisely in the present."
im really in love.
i am pretty sure i am going to move to another country next january after i graduate.
adventures with my camera. a new culture. learn a language.
i want it bad.
life is so good. i love the people. and the food. and several times this weekend i thought, man my cheeks hurt so bad from smiling all day.
this is what it is about: being in love with your own life, feeling God's love for you, complimenting someone else, cooking with a man, enjoying the beauty in the earth around you, being a part of a family, twirling on the dance floor, giggling with your best friend, reading a book, and the spontaneous squeeze of the hand.
p.s. there is nothing worse than my voice. ok my laugh is worse.
how come no one ever told me??
p.p.s. if i say "thats whats up" one more time…curse you troy and your addictive ghetto slang!
something that has been reiterated to me countless times this past week is: don't judge people. just plain love them. all of them. i'm sooo tired of catching myself, catching others, and being the recipient of people wrongfully casting persons aside for the way they look, their past, and how they seem to be. the gospel of Jesus Christ teaches that Christ's love is for all of us, not just the so called worthy or righteous. he died for the sinner, for the adulterer, the child, the weak, and for you & me.
in Luke 7 we read about a woman that is a sinner. she learns that Christ is nearby at the Pharisee's house and she came to him. She washed Christ's feet with her tears, and cleaned them with her hair, she kissed his feet and anointed them. The Pharisee thinks, "this man, if he were a prophet, would have known who and what manner of woman this is that toucheth him: for she is a sinner." Christ corrects he Pharisee and says, "Seest thou this woman? I entered into thine house, thou gavest me no water for my feet: but she hath washed my feet with tears, and wiped them with the hairs of her head. Thou gavest me no kiss: but this woman since the time I came in hath not ceased to kiss my feet…Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much; but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little."
whether we are christians or not, believing in people and loving them without judgement or conditions is the second greatest commandment. it is so very often omitted from the lives of people that believe they are superior and oh so righteous. we are all beggars. we all plead for the love and mercy from our Savior. there is so much happiness in showing and sharing love with everyone around us, not just the LDS people around us, not just our family. There are people in need that we are sent here to give aid. and often times those are the people that will be most difficult for us to love. but it will be of most importance for us to find that love within us and give when it is hard.
ive thought this is my anthem. photos from a hike a very long time ago. the beginning of winter. it was freezing and i had a fever. and i ate mini wheats in a plastic bag. there were hot springs. and it smelled of sulfur.
i took this image a long time ago. i still love it. i love calla lilies.
some times when a happy little oyster is just drifting along loving life-
a rough little piece of sand sneaks its way in.
this sand is an irritation, a foreigner, a little bit of something bad
and what does this dear sweet oyster do?
it embraces the darn thing
wraps it up, over and over, with nacre
creating a most beautiful thing
i love my pearl.
im getting the worst of my senioritis syndrome. all i want to do is go dancing and eat and hike.
i can't wait to get tan. yesterday was a glorious 60 degrees. i wore a tank & shorts running. it was aaaaamazing.
i got another shot in my foot today.
this summer is probably going to be the best yet. britt and i already have grand plans including a 4 day camp out in colorado to see tim mcgraw and kenny chesney and all the cowboys these eyes could dream of.
i have climbed out of my hole- it seems. my wounds are scarring up.
and it feels great.
i feel selfish for being so consumed. im sorry.
but i am forever grateful for the opportunity i had to learn. im grateful to more deeply understand the atonement of Jesus Christ. my relationship with God has just grown more precious.
my heart just aches for people dealing with pain and guilt and sadness. i know what its like. i know about the crying on the bathroom floor. and i wish i could take it all away for each person i am thinking of. i cry for them. i wish i could pick them up and show their hearts that it will be ok. it really will. Jesus Christ has hurt for you and me, so that we don't fully have to. he literally will pick you up, strengthen your heart, and fill your very being with joy. i know He has the power to do this for each of us, especially in our own lowest of days.
i wish i could take the hurt away. i wish i could help people understand the power in having a relationship with the Savior.
i read this morning about a very amazing man. he is mormon, and he has same gender attraction. he is incredibly talented and blessed and it humbles me to read his words.
i want to help people find happiness. maybe i should have been a psych major?? teach grief groups or something?
im still not done with this lil project. i have to paint the wood and glue all the fabric down. and i freehanded the letters so they didn't turn out pretty. but i love the idea. i'll get better at it.
i love my crooked heart. it took me a month and a half to even look at it.
i unraveled the initials-
and wrote something better over them
i was recently asked my top 5 non-negiotiable qualities in a man. i've been thinking on this ever since i answered. my answers were:
1. babies— this is simple. i want a family. i want babies to snuggle and sing to and teach and love and enjoy. i want a husband that wants this too. that believes in an eternal family. that will be an amazing example to my babies and teach them how to fish and say their prayers.
2. God—i need a priesthood holder. one that wants to be that man not just for me and the kids, but because that what he really wants for himself, in his heart. i want to trust that my husband will seek and follow God, so i can follow him. i want to be sealed in the temple for eternity. i want to kneel in prayer together each day. i want to know that we have the same goals in mind, to return to Heavenly Father, to share the gospel, to live what we believe.
3.temper—this is just not negotiable. this also falls under the respect & communication category. i want someone that speaks with soft tones to me and my babies. that shows their love by controlling the way they come off and sound. i don't want screaming in my house. nothing makes me more uncomfortable then when men get angry—especially if they punch things/throw things/yell. it's just poor communication skills, immature, and unnecessary. and i don't deserve to have that.
4. communication— this is the key. any relationship can be successful if both parties have effective communication skills. i can't stress this quality enough. someone that is open, who can use their words.
5. respect—so much comes into play here. respect for themselves, for others, for their mother, for me. manners, reverence. something i have noticed in men that i date is that i don't always respect each of them, i'm not rude, but you have to really appreciate and respect that person. (i can't do passive men). you have to honor them a lil. you watch what you say and do- that you might show that respect.
and now that im thinking about it, i have about 30 other things to add to this list. but these are really the things that i will not budge on. can't do without.