Thursday, March 31, 2011

on dips..

my name is desiree
and i am officially addicted to dancing

here's what some gorgeous west coast looks like..

Wednesday, March 30, 2011


i have had annoying anxiety this week.
i've been trying to ignore it.

it's not working.
i want to kiss this babies lips so bad.

things i love:
cooking for someone
whipped cream
the smell of my laundry
that push 75% through your run where you feel like you can do anything in the world
dramatic songs/photos/musicals
the idea of running away
lindts white chocolate truffles
the smell of my hands right now

ways that boys have asked me out lately:
1. tried to trip me as i walked by (what the..?!)…then he came up later to apologize/joke/ask me to pancakes (this one worked. surprisingly. i gave him the benefit of doubt for originality. he has the cutest freckles and tight jeans)
2. "well are you gunna give me your number?" poorly put dear boy, but i know you were nervous
3. and my favorite to date.
him "are you good at math?"
me "no i hate it, do you need a tutor?"
him "No, i need you to solve an equation…P + Des squared/tomorrow night X fro-yo @ 8-9ish to the square root of fun equals….

all the sudden today. i wanted to cry. i wanted to hold a baby. it doesnt have to be mine.
ladies, give birth already. i'm ancy for you.

i have a gorgeous evening planned.
i love my life. even if i don't know what i'm doing.
fake it til you make it?

Saturday, March 26, 2011


new video.
this video will only be partially entertaining to 3-4 people in the world. and that is ok.
this is my middle eastern friend tim.
he is one of my very best friends.
he is a hand model.
and he is always paranoid.
we don't really get along, but somehow i love him.

note: i really genuinely love the indian culture. very interesting to me. i had a lot of clients that were from india and they are absolutely amazing. i want to go there..until then, i will continue to eat chicken makhani & garlic naan and practice my bollywood dance moves.

you may want to reconsider your relationship with me. you will end up being a movie star. this may or may not be your goal and sole motivation to befriend me. and im ok with that.

p.p.s. the animal is the trunk of the elephant…i thought it was a snake..then i thought it was a dinosaur. i got a kick out of it when i realized it was an elephant. im ridiculous.

im late for my test and my soccer game.
yeeee. i'll do the indian dance when i score.

Friday, March 25, 2011

sun sun sun

today-it snowed.

in 2 weeks i will be basking in the california love
happy friday
i want to dance
but instead i ate indian food and will take a test.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

this really happened.

m. March 24 at 11:08am Report
Selah. I love you and miss you and want to marry you. Hehe. JK but also I am serious. Find out mysteriously why...Selah.
Desiree Nebeker March 24 at 10:02pm


dudes from my favorite tv show..

on love

dear first date:

your money and muscles bore me


Tuesday, March 22, 2011

i do believe that the SHANE COMPANY might have the worst advertisements possible.

miracle on 7th street

last year- somehow-
i missed flippin girl scout cookie season. i was pissed for a long time.
today i seriously repeated a prayer that the chubby cheeked, obnoxious girls would be outside walmart
when i turned the corner and saw them braving the snow, i yelped with joy. i turned up my country and started dancing.

when i walked up to the table one, of the mothers commanded a girl to get me a box saying, "this lady looks like a serious buyer.."

i couldve sworn girl scout cookies were 6 bucks when i was a green girl (or whatever they are called lol..brownie? with fudge? please???)
here in utah they are $3.50 !!

life has never been better when you got a tagalong in yo mouth

the 2nd reason why march might be the best month ever:
men with march madness beards

woah baby. bring on the calories and the madness!!

Monday, March 21, 2011


"Time is a gift, a treasure not to be put aside for the future but to be used wisely in the present."

im really in love.
i am pretty sure i am going to move to another country next january after i graduate.
adventures with my camera. a new culture. learn a language.
i want it bad.

life is so good. i love the people. and the food. and several times this weekend i thought, man my cheeks hurt so bad from smiling all day.

this is what it is about: being in love with your own life, feeling God's love for you, complimenting someone else, cooking with a man, enjoying the beauty in the earth around you, being a part of a family, twirling on the dance floor, giggling with your best friend, reading a book, and the spontaneous squeeze of the hand.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

love and such

ridin dirty. or something.
can you find the banana peel in this image??

new clip from this week on my vimeo..check it yo
p.s. there is nothing worse than my voice. ok my laugh is worse.
how come no one ever told me??

p.p.s. if i say "thats whats up" one more time…curse you troy and your addictive ghetto slang!

something that has been reiterated to me countless times this past week is: don't judge people. just plain love them. all of them. i'm sooo tired of catching myself, catching others, and being the recipient of people wrongfully casting persons aside for the way they look, their past, and how they seem to be. the gospel of Jesus Christ teaches that Christ's love is for all of us, not just the so called worthy or righteous. he died for the sinner, for the adulterer, the child, the weak, and for you & me.

in Luke 7 we read about a woman that is a sinner. she learns that Christ is nearby at the Pharisee's house and she came to him. She washed Christ's feet with her tears, and cleaned them with her hair, she kissed his feet and anointed them. The Pharisee thinks, "this man, if he were a prophet, would have known who and what manner of woman this is that toucheth him: for she is a sinner." Christ corrects he Pharisee and says, "Seest thou this woman? I entered into thine house, thou gavest me no water for my feet: but she hath washed my feet with tears, and wiped them with the hairs of her head. Thou gavest me no kiss: but this woman since the time I came in hath not ceased to kiss my feet…Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much; but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little."

whether we are christians or not, believing in people and loving them without judgement or conditions is the second greatest commandment. it is so very often omitted from the lives of people that believe they are superior and oh so righteous. we are all beggars. we all plead for the love and mercy from our Savior. there is so much happiness in showing and sharing love with everyone around us, not just the LDS people around us, not just our family. There are people in need that we are sent here to give aid. and often times those are the people that will be most difficult for us to love. but it will be of most importance for us to find that love within us and give when it is hard.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

put on your coat

“there is no chance, no fate, no destiny that can circumvent or hinder or control the firm resolve of a determined soul.”

Thursday, March 17, 2011

happy st patty's!

tomorrow will be my 3rd day on the mountain this week.
you just gotta love life huh?

take me away, then take me farther

ive thought this is my anthem.

photos from a hike a very long time ago. the beginning of winter. it was freezing and i had a fever. and i ate mini wheats in a plastic bag. there were hot springs. and it smelled of sulfur.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

my girls are all grown up

well do ya?
someone thought i was drinking…this is the best stuff ever..i think its a utah thing...

wrenn's wedding

here is my first video experiment. it was a gorgeous day.

this new camera video thing is real neat and fun.
i will be adding new videos to vimeo as i go…

as for me, life is so good.
i bought a sweet leather satchel purse today.
i'm in love.

i had really weird/disturbing dreams last night.
at one point, i was salivating so much that i just kept spitting up mouths full of spit. i couldn't stop. it was disgusting.
so weird.

and then my phone rang and i thought it was my friend so i answered it and then i realized i didn't know who the person was. and i freaked out and hung up. my heart raced.
so strange, i am.

have a happy day! i'm goin running then dinner with lucy then gettin down on the dance floor with cowboy casanova! yeeeeeehaw!

Sunday, March 13, 2011

ye shall grow

Betcha didn't know-


i'm mad good at bowling.
bah i'm really terrible at it and THAT kills me.
the point of this video was to introduce to you my new HD video camera thing! yeee!
it's pretty neat. i'm just gettin the hang of it. i near recorded everything this weekend..

this weekend was another wonderful one. reeaaallly wonderful.
i've been so in love lately.
i'm really really blessed. i love the people in my life. even the little ones.
even just talking to strangers and understanding life just a little bit more.

i'm having trouble thinking and focusing due to only 9 hours of sleep this entire weekend.
im going to read til i pass out. sweet dreams.

Friday, March 11, 2011

by the sea

i took this image a long time ago. i still love it. i love calla lilies.

some times when a happy little oyster is just drifting along loving life-
a rough little piece of sand sneaks its way in.
this sand is an irritation, a foreigner, a little bit of something bad
and what does this dear sweet oyster do?
it embraces the darn thing
wraps it up, over and over, with nacre
creating a most beautiful thing
a pearl.

i love my pearl.

im getting the worst of my senioritis syndrome. all i want to do is go dancing and eat and hike.
i can't wait to get tan. yesterday was a glorious 60 degrees. i wore a tank & shorts running. it was aaaaamazing.

i got another shot in my foot today.

this summer is probably going to be the best yet. britt and i already have grand plans including a 4 day camp out in colorado to see tim mcgraw and kenny chesney and all the cowboys these eyes could dream of.

i'm so ready to come home and smell salty air.
love you for reading. have a happy weekend.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

some pages turn

my heart has really ached for people lately.
i have climbed out of my hole- it seems. my wounds are scarring up.
and it feels great.

i feel selfish for being so consumed. im sorry.
but i am forever grateful for the opportunity i had to learn. im grateful to more deeply understand the atonement of Jesus Christ. my relationship with God has just grown more precious.

my heart just aches for people dealing with pain and guilt and sadness. i know what its like. i know about the crying on the bathroom floor. and i wish i could take it all away for each person i am thinking of. i cry for them. i wish i could pick them up and show their hearts that it will be ok. it really will. Jesus Christ has hurt for you and me, so that we don't fully have to. he literally will pick you up, strengthen your heart, and fill your very being with joy. i know He has the power to do this for each of us, especially in our own lowest of days.

i wish i could take the hurt away. i wish i could help people understand the power in having a relationship with the Savior.

i read this morning about a very amazing man. he is mormon, and he has same gender attraction. he is incredibly talented and blessed and it humbles me to read his words.

i want to help people find happiness. maybe i should have been a psych major?? teach grief groups or something?

life is so good.
life is so hard but it is so worth it.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

hey its wednesday. and you know what that means.
dancin' time.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

the night we ate 11 desserts..

i love girl friends.

times when it sucks to be a lady:
-instructing people on exercise
-wedding planning
-when you're in a middle eastern country
-when something is heavy

times when it rocks to be a lady:
-going on dates
-when approaching a door
-when shoe shopping

Monday, March 7, 2011

on men

im still not done with this lil project. i have to paint the wood and glue all the fabric down. and i freehanded the letters so they didn't turn out pretty. but i love the idea. i'll get better at it.

i love my crooked heart. it took me a month and a half to even look at it.
i unraveled the initials-
and wrote something better over them

i was recently asked my top 5 non-negiotiable qualities in a man. i've been thinking on this ever since i answered. my answers were:

1. babies— this is simple. i want a family. i want babies to snuggle and sing to and teach and love and enjoy. i want a husband that wants this too. that believes in an eternal family. that will be an amazing example to my babies and teach them how to fish and say their prayers.

2. God—i need a priesthood holder. one that wants to be that man not just for me and the kids, but because that what he really wants for himself, in his heart. i want to trust that my husband will seek and follow God, so i can follow him. i want to be sealed in the temple for eternity. i want to kneel in prayer together each day. i want to know that we have the same goals in mind, to return to Heavenly Father, to share the gospel, to live what we believe.

3.temper—this is just not negotiable. this also falls under the respect & communication category. i want someone that speaks with soft tones to me and my babies. that shows their love by controlling the way they come off and sound. i don't want screaming in my house. nothing makes me more uncomfortable then when men get angry—especially if they punch things/throw things/yell. it's just poor communication skills, immature, and unnecessary. and i don't deserve to have that.

4. communication— this is the key. any relationship can be successful if both parties have effective communication skills. i can't stress this quality enough. someone that is open, who can use their words.

5. respect—so much comes into play here. respect for themselves, for others, for their mother, for me. manners, reverence. something i have noticed in men that i date is that i don't always respect each of them, i'm not rude, but you have to really appreciate and respect that person. (i can't do passive men). you have to honor them a lil. you watch what you say and do- that you might show that respect.

and now that im thinking about it, i have about 30 other things to add to this list. but these are really the things that i will not budge on. can't do without.

life is so very good.
love yahs

Friday, March 4, 2011

kris & brenna

the fruit of her hands

"Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies." —proverbs 31:10

a boy once told me of this when i was 17,
and i had forgotten this truth.

but he reminded me of this again
and he didn't say i was hot. he said i was pretty. and he said it twice.
i didn't believe him, like i didn't believe the 17 year old.
but it dawned on me today. there are still good parts about me.
it's possible that i can have something better.
that i'm not broken. that nothing is wrong with me.
that it's not that i'm not good enough.

and he thinks im beautiful. i don't know if he knows how much this means to me.
not that he thinks im beautiful, but that i know he meant it.
but it woke me up and let me feel again. and i know that this is how God sees me.

"Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised." —proverbs 31:30