radical

phoenix is my new favorite band.
i listened to them in a car wash today.

i have to suppress the growing urge to roll down my windows in the car wash.

but with the music, it was the best solo dance party i've ever had.

listen to them. please do. right here here here


here is a thought from my book, written from a woman on a spiritual journey, a woman not of my faith, but a woman who discovers some of the richest realities of this life.

"This is what rituals are for. We do spiritual ceremonies as human beings in order to create a safe resting place for our most complicated feelings of joy or trauma, so that we don't have to haul those feelings around with us forever, weighing us down. We all need such places of ritual safekeeping. And I do believe that if your culture or tradition doesn't have the specific ritual you're craving, the you are absolutely permitted to make up a ceremony of your own devising, fixing your own broken-down emotional systems with all the do-it-yourself resourcefulness of a generous plumber/poet. If you bring the right earnestness to your homemade ceremony, God will provide the grace. And that is why we need God."

the next line says, "So I stood up and did a handstand on my Guru's roof, to celebrate the notion of liberation."

(a handstand!?!? rad. i don't even think i could do one...)
And i don't know that i entirely agree with everything she writes about. But as she tells her story of find herself, it makes you think about how you've found, or are continually finding, yourself. i think about the extremity of feelings in my life. on either end of the spectrum. either way, i keep them locked away as not to loose them, or forever to loose them. it's all so strange. but most the time, those feelings are "away" from me. and this keeps me sane.
but i agree with her in only being able to get through these ups and downs by the grace of God. and he will come to you no matter your situation, no matter your practices, no matter your beliefs.

man, i don't come on here to write about spiritual matter every time, but when i express myself, it always comes back to it. perhaps because i am so ultimately indebted to my creator for all that i am.

so here is a website that you should check out...its way cool. i found it the other day. its a great idea, and fun to explore. you get to make a list of your goals/dreams/desires. and view others. its inspiring. and thinking about your personal goals is always great. keeps you in check with yourself and progression. do it do it do it.

im still having sushi withdrawls.
im still running.
im still out of love.
boo.

=] smile me pretty!