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remember when you were ten and life was easy?

remember when you had no concept of what time it was

or how much money you had

or how you would eat that day

??

remember when you could just play and play and never get tired

or when you thought you would be the one to change the world

??

today, i wish i was ten

i wish i didn't have to think about my growing student loans

or rebugeting every month to prepare for christmas (thats a whole other tangent)

or what i needed to cook for dinner

or what load of laundry needed washing by when

or about exercising more

or about all the things im not doing

or about finding a dumb husband (p.s. the finding is the dumb part---- trust me i can find plenty of dumb ones)

or following a planner

or what i should/want to become

normally i love to make lists of goals and i get all pumped

but lately it's like this:: goal—do whatever to stay alive throughout the day

maybe cause i don't really know what im doing with my life right now.

bleh.

end of desiree being sad about being an adult.

i just wanna be ten and roller blade behind a bike with a jump rope tied to it, then sprint inside and have some cherry kool-aid

is that too much to ask?