Monday, November 7, 2011

im sick in bed.
my sleep is heavy
the weekend was beautiful though: we snuggled and talked for hours, ate thai in the upstairs room of a house, laughed & danced, i cried-he sang along with his guitar, i gasped with a smile at the fresh snow on the pines, ate gingersnap cookies, then played with friends for hours at a cabin in the snow.

there are so many things i don't know.
sunday in church i listened to someone bear their testimony (public sharing their knowledge and thoughts) of Jesus Christ. i thought about my relationship with the savior this past year. i cried remembering the pain i have felt in being single at this time. in being jealous of other women. and the selfish anguish that brought me. i feel so silly for those feelings.
i didn't want to be that woman.
i tried so hard to be strong and endure. and when i sought my savior, and asked for help--- he came to my side. and lifted my burdens.

i couldn't possibly be more happy with this very moment in my life. i don't want it to speed up. i don't want it to slip by. i want to remember the details and hear the crunch of the leaves and feel the warmth of this season.

i am so thankful for the things i have learned so far in life. the hard things that have shaped my mind and memories. that help me to be prepared for today. to enjoy today. i love creating this every day. even if today is just spent watching tangled, and other love movies, in bed.

2 comments:

mom said...

It's not February. What are you doing?

desiredshots PHOTOGRAPHY said...

seriously..
it must be february's lil brother..
i don't feel like i'm dying, so this must be just a lil change of season precursor..