and this is what i am.

dear world. take it or leave it. i'm the smudge in this light.

messy and imperfect and tragically in love with love.

i walked out of the temple today and cried because i am so thankful to have my body.

my eyes. my mind. my particular family. to have truth and goodness in my life.

i am thankful for music. for my ears. for time to lay and listen.

for the feel of paper, to read. to learn everyday.

i walked up to him and say, "john. sometimes, life throws you a curve ball."

john says, "did you knock it over the fence?"

"i swung and i missed john."

he gets serious, "what did he do to you?"

i pretend to not hear his words. "my table just left me three dollars."

he didn't forget, "they don't even know.

you're worth a trillion dollars."