reinvent

"All children are born geniuses; 9,999 out of every 10,000 are swiftly, inadvertently degeniusized by grownups." —Buckminster Fuller

dear baby wyatt,

you can do anything. you are free. you can be anything. you are a child of God.

and i believe in you. you are meant to shine.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, or fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." --- Author, Marianne Williamson

we are free to choose

did you know that i really love to travel? and by that i mean i love change and people watching and different cultures (kind of). and by all of that, i really just mean that i like to read.

"The essence of being human is being able to direct your own life."

my current read is helping me learn.

i'm really enjoying it.

Covey's 8th Habit.

I think i will lay on the lake and read in the sun,

and i will curl up on the cabin porch on the lawn chair, smell the pines, and read some more.

those are my favorite moments all year.

maybe that is a selfish comment. hm.

i had a lot of reflection and inspired thoughts come to me while i read on my flights. but now-i am too tired to relay them. i'll journal them tomorrow after i rest. p.p.s. tonight i get to sleep in a bed! yee!

today i'm heading home.

i get to meet my nephew finally.

i havent been this excited to come home in a while.

i cried the other night just thinking about him.

i am still homeless. that is, without a home.

living out of a suitcase makes me miss things that i never knew i'd miss.

like my retainer. i had a near panic attack the other day thinking that i really neeeeed that retainer now.

and i miss my bird house.

and my own sheets.

and a closet.

and even-cooking.

i'm craving jamba juice again. maybe i want a juicer for xmas? p.s. there is a sewing machine on sale at costco. should i get it? p.s. all i do all night is lay in bed and think of art projects for my new home. it's awesome.

k. i'm going to the airport.

love

=]

photographs taken during Olympic dives.

when life becomes stressful, find a way to smile.

blossoming

places that occupy my dreams.

alive

mountain cruising music.

don't you feel like somethings missing here?

p.s. i love boyd's grip on the mic. i will always have a crush on that man.

refresh

i'm thinking of this post from a while back. remember it? i have referred to it a couple times these past couple of months. i really ought to print it out. it's a season of change for me. some by choice, some changes by chance. and i am trying to positively open my arms to it all. life is good right? so as i am attempting to redirect (and CONTROL, oh no) and organize the changes i am thinking about establishing some positive goals, ideas, perspectives, and atmospheres. and i like it. i have some great books, some pretty things, and new habits that i would like to form. i have some serious personal goals i want to work on, that will be aided in the next year by these changes i make now. commitment.

i will begin with two things for this next month: twenty minutes of learning italian everyday. and create a vision board/inspiration board/dream board.

i read a blog from time to time called making things happen. i'm pretty into it. all the uplifting talk. pre-game/life pep talks. love it. i stole this excerpt a while back. i've been thinking about these 5 things lately.

1. What 10 things fire you up the most in life? What makes you want to jump out of bed? What makes you feel alive? Your list may be 50 things. Just writingthis list will make you happy. Keep this list visible and keep adding to it. Work to have these things in your life every day.

1 sharing the gospel of Jesus Christ

2 my dreams

3 really delicious food/anything dessert

4 photography-seeing, THE moment, delicious light, smiling behind the camera, the adrenaline, breathtaking visuals

5 babies

6 living the passion

7 chuck palanuik books

8 the EXTRAORDINARY people God has placed in my life

9 cinnamon rolls

10 creating {anything}

2. What five “Essentials” make you feel most whole every day. If you had these five elements in your every day life, you would feel complete. Write them on an index card or a post-it, whatever! Get creative and have them visible all the time.

1 someone to love and be loved by

2 prayer. a relationship with Heavenly Father and His Son (peace, guidance, love, hope, goals, direction, joy, blessings, comfort)

3 a clean home, safe, and filled with warmth (and babies)(and cookies)

4 exercise

5 my work, the things i make/do

3. What is your life’s purpose/goal/mission in one sentence? This isn’t about having the perfect answer to the meaning of life. It’s about defining what is true for you right now. A mentor of mine told me once to take a blank piece of paper and write “My life’s purpose is to….” at the top and keep rewriting that statement until you just know. It might take you 10 pages. Write until that statement is clear, bold and rooted. Write your final statement as big as you can and put it where you can see it all day long. Be accountable to that statement and share it with people you trust. None of this matters if you don’t DO something about it.

OVERCOME THE NATURAL MAN, CREATE SYNERGY, & INSPIRE BELIEF

4. What is your purpose for 2011 in one word? My purpose in 2011 is to ____. Again, make this visible.

two words: BE LIGHT.

5. Rinse and repeat these exercises often. Again, this isn’t about having the perfect answers. It’s about having the answers that are true to you right now. Your driving force in life will strengthen the more you work to define and redefine it.

it's like this

"when you are inspired by some great purpose, some extraordinary project, all your thoughts break their bounds. your mind transcends limitations, your consciousness expands in every direction, and you find yourself in a new, great and wonderful world"

— the yoga sutras of patanjali

today.

my sister brought baby wyatt into the world. 3.5 lbs, 17 inches of love. i guess us Kunis's do what we want, when we want! Wyatt is 2 months early, but healthy and doing well!

kristy is one of the most loving and selfless people i know. she is going to be a wonderful mother.

i couldn't be with the family for the birth, so i celebrated in the timpanogos temple. such a perfect place for such a sweet occasion. happy brith day wyatt james!

the breeze

i walked around my antique shop. and i was in love today. it was the best moment.

i made 3 solid purchases with projects in mind. i am so excited to play.

i knew at this time that everything would be ok. life will still be good.

i felt more at home in the old mill than in my own bed.

my mind reeling and peace in my heart.

if you are ever in utah, i'd love to take you there.

i've recently been told that my rather blunt honesty and my lack of censoring the words that spill out of my mouth are not always taken so well by others. so with that in mind, i will make the following statement..

i am shocked to report that for the first time in my life i have witnessed my first harry potter anything (book, movie, or look a like movie goers) and i am surprised to announce that i did not even fall asleep. and i am going to leave it at that.

i bought a new stephen covey book that i am excited to open my mind up to.

i'm stressed and tired and my ovaries/back ache. i'm going to attempt sleep on brit's couch once more. xo.

rant

tiana started a blog for us girlfriends back at home to rant about our whiny boy problems, shoe problems, and career/lack of babies problems. pretty much just tiana and i have began to contribute but with time—hopefully it will be a good forum. check it if you're into that kind of stuff.

http://xoxo-us.blogspot.com

p.s. two days ago my manager at the OG called me aside.

this is never good right?

he proceeds to scold me for a guest complaint.

i thought surely he has me mixed up with someone else. i was good to all my tables today… no one was unhappy…

then it dawned on me the people he was talking about. the 6 BYU freshman that ordered soup (3 refills each) and salad, tipped a dollar each, and were annoyed when i told them that i dont sing for their birthday. they made the effort to call my boss and complain to him—saying that i was not a happy and peppy enough.

my manager said we can't have this. i said, well i'm not. i'm not getting paid to be happy. i'm not going to fake it. i get paid to fill these people with food and pop. i do it nicely, orderly, and exactly as they ordered it.

boy i hate my immediate job.

only through love

"Have pity on those who are fearful of taking up a pen, or a paintbrush, or an instrument, or a tool because they are afraid that someone has already done so better than they could, and who feel themselves to be unworthy to enter the marvelous mansion of art. But have even more pity on those who, having taken up the pen, or the paintbrush, or the instrument, or the tool have turned inspiration into a paltry thing, and yet feel themselves to be better than others. Neither of these kinds of people know thy law that says, 'For there is nothing covered that will not be revealed, nor hidden that will not be known' "

-the pilgrimage

it was one of those reads.

the kind where you wish you could read the book forever. it never ending.

the journey still twisting and loving the characters.

this author has been given the gift of dreaming and invoking that within others.

life has been abnormal. but i love the people that have been kind and selfless to me.

this is a good time for changes. and i getting a tiny bit closer to where i want to be.

my heavenly father loves me dearly. i see it everyday.

more

i just really enjoy expensive hair products.

and this.

good things are to come

yesterday at church, we were talking about families.

i contemplated the kind of family i want to have. the details. the traditions.

we were asked, what do you love about your family?

and tears welled up in my eyes

and i felt the spirit.

my immediate reply was, they're my friends. and they always will be.

i can't imagine life without them.

so true.

saw this:

'n loved it.

it happens all the time, sadly.

this could be related in so many ways to other aspects of life. it is not always about the size or quality or how expensive something is—life is about what you make of it, the moments you create, your art, your passions. things money can't buy.

i have learned.

happiness in life has more to do with self-disicpline than anything else.

p.s. i hate when my daily blog reads don't write posts consistently. drives me bonkers.

i have been found guilty of this. i've had a change of heart. goodnight sweet things.

sweethearts.

still bananas.

i have so many thoughts.

i just never have the internet/computer/means to get them on here lately.

the only real complaint about living out of my car/on sweet friends' homes is using my towel more than once…

i didn't know that not everyone uses a fresh, clean, laundry detergent smelling towel everyday

absurd.

nonetheless, life- it is good.

4th of july in provo is kind of wonderful. everyone is having a ball this weekend, including my tanned shoulders.

i haven't slept well in some time.

i haven't ran in over a week.

but i have learned a lot lately, and wish to share as soon as i get a moment to organize my bananas.

i love you still

san francisco