the tunnels all around me

{time together is just never quite enough
when you and i are alone i've never felt so at home
what will it take to make or break this hint of love
we need time, only time
when we're apart, what ever are you thinking of
if this is what i call home, why does it feel so alone
so tell me darling do you wish we'd fall in love
all the time}



which is one of the sweetest songs sung.
so maybe i should hustle books for a living. im promoting The Alchemist this evening.
probably one of the utmost inspiring books i have ever read.
and it rings true in every aspect.
its an adventure and wisely written and forces you to be positively introspective.

i have been cultivating my thoughts on the subject this past week. im so glad i read this book, because the thought of DREAMS is something that i just wasn't thinking about. so i would love to expound on the main topics covered concerning dreams.

"To realize one's destiny is a person's only obligation."

the author, paulo coelho, states, "What is a personal calling? It is God's blessing, it is the path that God chose for you here on Earth. Whenever we do something that fills us with enthusiasm, we are following our legend. However, we don't all have the courage to confront our own dream.
Why?
There are four obstacles. First: we are told from childhood onward that everything we want to do is impossible. We grow up with this idea, and as the years accumulate, so too do the layers of prejudice, fear and guilt. There comes a time when our personal calling is so deeply buried in our soul as to be invisible. But it's still there.
If we have the courage to disinter dream, we are then faced by the second obstacle: love. We know what we want to do, but are afraid of hurting those around us by abandonng everything in order to pursue our dream. We do not realize that love is just further impetus, not something that will prevent us going forward. We do not realize that those who genuinely wish us well want us to be happy and are prepared to accompany us on that journey.
Once we have accepted that love is a stimulus, we come up against the third obstacle: fear of the defeats we will meet on the path. ...Then, we warriors of light must be prepared to have patience in difficult times and to know that the Universe is conspiring in our favor, even though we may not understand how. ...I ask myself: are defeats necessary?
...The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.
So why is it so important to live our personal calling if we are only going to suffer more than other people?
Because, once we have overcome the defeats--and we always do--we are filled by a greater sense of euphoria and confidence. In the silence of our hearts, we know that we ar proving ourselves worthy of the miracle of life. E ach day, each hour, is part of the good fight. We start to live with enthusiasm and pleasure. Intense, unexpected suffering passes more quickly than suffering that is apparently bearable; the latter goes on for years and, without our noticing, eats away at our soul, until, one day, we are no longer able to free ourselves from the bitterness and it stays with us for the rest of our lives.
Having disinterred our dream, having used the power of love to nurture it and spent many years living with the scars, we suddenly notice that what we always wanted is there, waiting for us, perhaps the very next day. Then comes the fourth obstacle: the fear of realizing the dream for which we fought all our lives.
Oscar Wilde said: 'Each man kills the thing he loves.' And it's true. The mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary person with guilt. We look around at all those who have failed to get what they want and feel that we do not deserve to get what we want either. We forget about all the obstacles we overcame, all the suffering we endured, all the things we had to give up in order to get this far....This is the most dangerous of the obstacles because it has a kind of saintly aura about it: renouncing joy and conquest. But if you believe yourself worthy of the thing you fought so hard to get, then you become an instrument of God, you help the Soul of the World, and you understand why you are here."

This was an excerpt from the introduction of The Alchemist. The story is amazing. It is about a boy that travels and experiences these obstacles, and comes to know his personal legend.

"If what one finds is made of pure matter, it will never spoil."

" 'Why do we have to listen to our hearts?'...'Because, whereever your heart is, that is where you'll find your treasure.' "But my heart is agitated...It has its dreams, it gets emotional, and it's become passionate over a woman of the desert...' "

" 'Then why should I listen to my heart?' ... 'Because you will never be able to keep it quiet. Even if you pretend not to have heard what it tells you, it will always be there inside you, repeating to you..' "


The message is: the universe will conspire to fulfill your most righteous and passionate desires. you have the innate power to have all things, whether good or evil, become a reality.
so what are your dreams?

i see people around me that are geniously talented and gifted. i think of a friend will the most beautiful voice, a friend that is an artist, and friend that is a musican. they have allowed worldly obstacles prevent them from their dreams. let go.
sell off all your land and travel the world if thats what you're made to do.
im excited. im enthused. im passionate. i have been fulfilling some of my sweetest dreams.
i see people that are locked in the 9-5 job that they hate. i see people that do the exact same thing everyday. i see people that never smile, or laugh, or dance. i see people that have no dreams left in them. how many adults do you know that have dreams? that are pursuing those dreams?
probably not many, if any.
how many children do you know that have dreams? that believe and are aiming for these dreams?
probably every child you can imagine.
it seems the obstacles build on our shoulders as we endure trials of life. we don't knock them down, get up and begin the trek toward the light of our dreams. we let them cloud our vision, disrupt our dreams.
dreams don't have to be lost like the innocence of our childhood.
adults dream too.
i dream too.

if you want to borrow my copy please give me your address and i would love to send you the book.


-cause my blood cells can not depend on the weather in photographs, theres a light show out my window, some where, way up there...i am so far out of place watching those stars in outter space, cause i am so far from where you are-