how impossible is it to find one compatible man that i don't have to beg to get a job, go for a run, or believe in God?
the numbers would surprise you.
it seems i am always waiting for the pieces to come together, for life to settle down
but it won't. and i know it is ok. and i do the best i can.
and i need to accept that. i beat myself up over bad test scores the past two weeks. but this is real life. and sometimes i stumble. and it will be ok.
with the big picture in mind, i am trying to become the best that i can be. i'm trying to improve my weaknesses, become the woman God needs me to be.
"I want to tell you something that I hope you will take in the right way: God is fully aware that you and I are not perfect.
Let me add: God is also fully aware that the people you think are perfect are not.
And yet we spend so much time and energy comparing ourselves to others—usually comparing our weaknesses to their strengths. This drives us to create expectations for ourselves that are impossible to meet. As a result, we never celebrate our good efforts because they seem to be less than what someone else does.
Everyone has strengths and weaknesses.
It’s wonderful that you have strengths.
And it is part of your mortal experience that you do have weaknesses.
God wants to help us to eventually turn all of our weaknesses into strengths,1 but He knows that this is a long-term goal. He wants us to become perfect,2 and if we stay on the path of discipleship, one day we will. It’s OK that you’re not quite there yet. Keep working on it, but stop punishing yourself."