are we there yet?

i sat at this spot.

atop a rock. my favorite blanket wrapped around me. i just sat.

and watched this boy.

i held my camera snuggled in my arms like a baby

i brought it to my eye. rested it on my knees. and i think i even kissed it.

i soaked in the sun

i closed my eyes

and just listened

tears streamed down my cheeks

i could feel it in my heart

or deeper than my heart

and there arn't words that can do it justice

my being overflowing.

the ocean wasn't even big enough for it that day.

i watched him hop from rock to rock

i watched him discover crabs in the cracks

i rested my head on my camera and opened my thoughts.

there are some moments so precious

there are somethings so sacred that they should not be shared. my impressions were of such. i cried in prayer to my heavenly father. i whispered thank yous for my beautiful life, for all the details, for all the people, for all the joy, for the strength, for the creativity, for the peace i feel

the air was salty and my tears warmed my cheeks, coating tracks

i looked at him and thought i've never felt so much gratitude before

i've never felt such a profound desire to make someone happy

and for now, all i can say is this

God really does know us and love us

having a desire and trying to live to have his Spirit with you is the greatest change you can make in your life

he will guide you, he will bless you

and there has never been a sweeter gift

"they say the home is where the heart is"

we're home.

and today,

my home is in salt lake

working in the cold

but my home has never

felt so warm

there is a fireplace and moonlight

and racing hearts

and the smell of autumn

and even with the piercing cold air,

i smile