i've been trying so hard to practice the things i have learned/read/believe
i'm trying to be strong everyday and put a smile on
i'm trying to do all my normal chores
i'm really trying to do the Lord's will
i'm trying to eat
i'm trying to serve/think of others
i'm trying to not cry
i'm trying to sleep
but my dreams are the worst.
and i get upset with myself for not wanting to do anything
and i get depressed that i have no motivation to do school work
so, naturally—from years of experience, i fell into the things i must do to survive:
-i distract myself
-i pray some more
i heard the quote in church today, "the one that loves the least controls the relationship"
gah. i hate that quote.
or maybe i hate that its true.
so what do you do?
strive to not love people? don't let yourself open up to anyone?
that seems to be safest.