Sunday, February 22, 2009

the rare girly in me

i got on the computer tonight thinking that i had nothing to say.
found it weird that i havn't had much to say lately.

but i've had a splendid week of time off due to this terrible virus i have hoarding up my nose and throat.



but here i am writing. i've been inspired and touched by a lady. i don't personally know her. i have recently followed her blog through another photographer. her name is sheye. read this article of her blog if you get the chance. well worth a minute or two.

tears are running down my face. there is a combonation of being tired, the song that is filtering through my headphones, and the movie i watched yesterday. after read miss sheye's blog tonight, i am just overcome with passion.

yesterday i watched the movie
the dutchess
which is somewhat of a chic flick i suppose, but it is terribly wonderful and passionate.
the connection between the movie and sheye's blog about her poor lost daughter, is motherhood. i could go off for days in endless tangents about motherhood, like most things that i am passionate about. but after watching that movie and reading sheye's feelings today my heart just wants to burst. it's interesting because i am not yet a mother, and i could still connect and feel so much of the pain and sadness that these women endure.
the yearning. the divinity of motherhood. the impossible love.
i don't think there could be a greater role in life.
having children, being a mother, will be the greatest blessing of all.

i am inspired by sheye. her strength. for the amazingly talented and wonderful mother that she is. i hope i can be the kind of mother that she is.



"so you dance all night, and dance all day"

2 comments:

Alex said...

Not only do you possess the gift of empathy but you also possess the gift of compassion and of self-less love. It's a curse and blessing. You will be a mother some day and you'll be an amazing one. I know it.

desiredshots PHOTOGRAPHY said...

thank you so very much alex

i wish i could put feelings into words. better words. but i suppose that would reveal all mystery behind the sacredness of deep feelings. that is what i felt tonight. after rereading what i wrote, i realize, it doesn't convey an ounce of the eagerness and depth that i feel.

and those are great feelings that bring genuine smiles to my face.


and i smile as i write these words.