Sunday, May 17, 2009

i am taking a quick break between editing eliza and johnny's photos (the dazzling couple below) and studying for my personal training test (tuesday!! eek!) to write down a thought or series of thoughts i had today.

number one, man, i really need to start my family history work. my grandparents don't have a lot of time left here.

number two, i love wearing heels and dresses in the grocery store. i dig the stepford wife ordeal.

number three, i feel the need to take naps everyday between 1:30 and 3:00. and i just don't have time to be tired.

number four, a man (roughly 40's ish) spoke in church today and i decided i want my husband to be just like him. he and his wife gave talks. they were both super cool and humorous folks. what touched me was a story that he told. he took his 5 year old son on their first "father/son camp out" in celebration around the time of the anniversary of the restoration of the priesthood. as he layed down that night he held his son and told him the story of how joseph smith recieved revelation, and revealed scriptures to his son. the father looked up to the stars, and relayed to us today--as he had tears in his eyes, a knot in his throat, that he wanted to be a better man. he wanted to be a better father, a better husband, a better priesthood holder. tears swelled in my eyes. he knew this is what he had to be because this little boy was going to follow in his footsteps. i looked over at the wife, thinking i would be balling if that were my husband (hah!), and thought of how lucky she is to have such a devoted, passionate, and loving husband. how sweet and tender were his words and feelings. it is gorgeous to see this pure and perfect love shine through in a seemingly chaotic and growingly darker world. i love that man for declaring his words with the Holy Spirit, and being an amazing example to the priesthood holders that were in attendance and listening. my list of what i want in my man just got longer =]

number five, i need a massage.

number six, i haven't gone running in a week due to a strain in my butt somewhere and i'm having terrible withdrawls.

number seven, i am drowning with excitement to go to the temple this week with a dear friend of mine. heaven on earth. im filled with peace just thinking about it.

number eight, a quote i found from an author that i have decided i must read his work, "The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes 'Awww!' "
--jack kerouac

number nine, thought: i hope i become a better public speaker.

number ten, i refuse to move to utah to find the man i want.

number eleven, everything is so perfectly aligned right now. im blessed beyond measure. i want to help people.

number twelve, at the gym the other day, i was assisting my buddy, teddy, in training a lady that was really deconditioned. she has terrible terrible posture and muscle imbalances. her hands and fingers are curled up. she limps with one hip swung a foot higher than the other. she has poor balance. she has very slow motor reflexes. needless to say, we have to work very slowly, patiently, and constructively with her. it is exhausting for her to take one step up a stair. i watched her as she was told what to do, then you could see her thinking about how to go about it, invisioning it, then telling her leg to do the work. she had to hold onto a machine to pull/balance herself. the strength in her legs are weak, and due to her poor posture and alignment, this is a challenging task. i had tears in my eyes watching her squeeze a rubber resistance band. it took everything out of her. she was working so hard. teddy cheered her on. he said this is the farthest shes gotten and has made such great improvement. wow! this hit me straight in the chest (and literally to the tear ducts). this is what i live for. this is what i want to do. one day this lady will trip and she'll be able herself because of the training were doing with her, instead of falling and seriously hurting herself. she now has more confidence, movement in her joints, strengthened muscles, and better range of motion. this makes me fired up to help others, get them attaining their goals, changing lives. keeping people alive. powerful work.

number thirteen, i love my God. I love that i have taken the time and effort to develop a relationship with heavenly father and his son, jesus christ. there is no greater strength and power and hope than in the atonement of jesus christ. if we could even EXPERIMENT the smallest particle of faith in this, our savior, then joy and happiness and rich blessings will pour forth in ways you never even imagined. i don't 'believe' this is be true, I know that it is true. and in your heart you know it too. joy is to be had. and by all. and we are all his children. every one.

the end, my friends.

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