i had a dream last night she has blue eyes and is pretty blonde.
she also somehow had mustard poop all over her body. it was in my left hand that held the back of her head and it was also in my hair. i thought, i normally would feel a little annoyed/ocd about the whole mess but i felt calm and i slowly undressed her and began to wipe up the messes.
i was content and didn't feel like crying. i was just happy she was a healthy little girl in my arms.