but you dont do it and take action
cause its not what you reeeaallly want?
like my perspective
like getting on my knees in the cold for my prayers
like running 8 miles
like stopping destructive thoughts
like not eating gooey brownies
this is also termed: self mastery.
it is important to understand, learn, and DO.
have you ever felt that God forgot about you?
yesterday i knew i was allowing bad thoughts.
i sat through church. i enjoyed it. but i heard a child make noise.
and it brought tears to my eyes. the past couple weeks seeing kids, pregnant bellies, the baby section in stores. they all make me hurt. like upset hurt. like i can't even enjoy it anymore.
its becoming negative and brings me pain.
and i know its selfish of me. i've been blessed so very much. and in other ways.
and I KNOW God has a plan for me.
i know all these things. but still. i have righteous desires. he commands us to have families.
and im doing all i can think of. did he forget about me?
so im trying to remember the wise words of my last post.
to be happy now. to remind myself of the positives of being me NOW.
of the passion i have.
of the talents i have.
of the freedom and lovely sleep i enjoy.
of the small body i live in.
of the great people in my life.
and i will praise him.