ceasing

how impossible is it to find one compatible man that i don't have to beg to get a job, go for a run, or believe in God?

the numbers would surprise you.

it seems i am always waiting for the pieces to come together, for life to settle down

but it won't. and i know it is ok. and i do the best i can.

and i need to accept that. i beat myself up over bad test scores the past two weeks. but this is real life. and sometimes i stumble. and it will be ok.

with the big picture in mind, i am trying to become the best that i can be. i'm trying to improve my weaknesses, become the woman God needs me to be.

"I want to tell you something that I hope you will take in the right way: God is fully aware that you and I are not perfect.

Let me add: God is also fully aware that the people you think are perfect are not.

And yet we spend so much time and energy comparing ourselves to others—usually comparing our weaknesses to their strengths. This drives us to create expectations for ourselves that are impossible to meet. As a result, we never celebrate our good efforts because they seem to be less than what someone else does.

Everyone has strengths and weaknesses.

It’s wonderful that you have strengths.

And it is part of your mortal experience that you do have weaknesses.

God wants to help us to eventually turn all of our weaknesses into strengths,¹ but He knows that this is a long-term goal. He wants us to become perfect,² and if we stay on the path of discipleship, one day we will. It’s OK that you’re not quite there yet. Keep working on it, but stop punishing yourself."

this clip came from one of the most wonderful talks from this general conference

elder uchtdorf

if you have a moment to read it, it would not be time wasted.

have a happy monday??

oh hey

why heeellllllloooo fall

i love it so.

except i heard it's suppose to snow this weekend?? what the whaaat?

yesterday i drove past denny's around dinner time and i noticed that it was packed!

i thought to myself, who goes to denny's before midnight? who goes to denny's when ANYTHING else is open??

Can i teach you something about sports drinks??

gatorade, and such similar drinks, have so much sugar in them. only the top elite/endurance athletes (longer than 90 min of activity) benefit from sports drinks. the rest of us end up gaining more weight from drinking them than we even burn.

dang it.

so don't drink em. unless you're running a marathon.

i hope you have a happy day.

take my heart

my heart is heavy.

my week has been difficult but i have prayerfully sought to be strong and inspired.

i don't feel successful in this, but i do feel heavenly father's love.

last night my grandma died.

and i am ashamed i don't know her better than i do, but i am glad to know that our relationship does not end here.

i know that it is possible for us to be together again in the eternities. my knowledge of God's plan of happiness and salvation comforts me. not everyone has this knowledge though.

i know that this life is a time to grow and prepare to meet God.

what does this entail? trials, joy in continuous repentance, the ordinances of the gospel, making covenants in the temple, fulfilling our individual missions and roles, creating a family, serving those around us, loving them, and always striving to have the Holy Ghost as our companion.

i know that there is real, complete and eternal JOY in striving for the things above.

people in the church are not perfect, but the gospel itself—IS perfect. YOU can know God and see how He loves you. the gospel is not about being perfect, as in never sinning, like the savior is. the gospel is about continually repenting, turning to him for forgiveness for sins and imperfections, and seeking, trying, to be MORE like him.

we are not lost.

we are so very special to him.

and there are people in your life that you were meant to help and touch and love.

those people need you.

i am grateful to have known my grandma kunis. for her loyalty to God and her family.

i am forever blessed to be a member of my family and to share my testimony with people i come in contact with.

I know that God is our father in heaven. He is loves us unconditionally.

I know that he sent his son, Jesus Christ, to be our savior. To be the means by which we can be whole, complete, clean, and return to him. I know that the priesthood that has been restored to earth is the power of God given to worthy men. I know we are blessed with a compass called the Book of Mormon that guides us in how to live this life. I know that there is undeniable truth in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Every question can be answered here. You can know it in your heart and mind. Through sincere prayer, God will make it clear to you.

we are so very blessed to have the truth at the tips of our fingers if we will but put aside our pride and hard hearts. be open to truth and seek it.

here's my heart, oh take and seal it

seal it for Thy courts above

i have not necessarily had a hard week personally, but i have really hurt to see so many people i love in pain. i hate seeing my family and friends struggling. it weighs on me and i want to take all their pains away. each of them are in my prayers and i hope i can find even a small way to lift their burdens. life is good.

have a happy week.

welcome to provo

friday i needed out of the house.

so boy josh and i went on a photowalk.

and it lifted my spirits.

i've been wanting to take images of the architecture of homes in provo UT for a while now. I really really love the place i live. the porches are huge. each house and cute tiny details that give it character. pretty much my small town is just awesome. i am grateful to live here at this time.

dreamy rocking chairs??? yes please!


so this house is actually commercially owned but i'm not sure what kind of business it is..but there IS a giant statue of the savior which makes it very awesome/weird/awkward.

rainbow sprinklers anyone?
i bet his great grandpa made this by hand…

bikes and runners overflow provo streets.
i just love birdhouses..
wild sunflowers.
yellow doors and trim!!!
porch sittin'

makes me want to bake cookies with a baby on my hip.. no?
a pretty choir just sang in my head.
God bless America!!

he dances.




the Aladdin house



usually the couches are upright..

fall is upon us!! horray!!!

my porch view of autumn.